Walking Away

Yesterday, for the second time in my life I've had to walk away from something that was {extremely} & {brutally} difficult, but also so easy and crystal clear. I recently accepted a job offer after being unemployed for the last two months and it seemed like this was IT. It had all the potential to be Great and I was so excited to finally put my unemployment behind me - with a stable career in near sight. I have always given new positions my all and my time, but this was on a whole other level. Within 48 hours I ate nothing, got up to pee only once per day, sent 50 emails per hour on the hour, and was left alone to work on only my second day. I won't go into too many details (let's keep it professional here), but I have never grown to be so unhappy with something in such a short period of time. My unhappiness was insta instant. Let me just say that you couldn't pay me a million dollars no taxes deducted to have continued doing the work I was subjected to. My intuition (which has always been right) was knocking on my heart and spewing up the signs to peace out real fast. I didn't even have the time to take a deep breath and push the gut feelings back down. Needless to say, I spent those two nights tossing and turning asking myself if the (low) income was even worth my health, my soul, and my ability to even function as a human being. I came to realise that anything would be better than being in that situation. I was surviving my best without an income and I will continue to survive and sacrifice what I have to in order to find my happiness with something else. Two friends of mine who have helped me evaluate the situation said to me "you know what's best for you". Damn straight I do and I will not settle for anything less. Granted, I will have to make sacrifices on a daily basis to survive now, but I sure as hell will not settle for the most recent situation I was put in. We all have options, and we are never desperate. Stand up for yourself no matter how hard it is, no matter who is watching, & no matter who judges. Do what is good for you. End of story. 

I have the love, will work for mojitos.